Wednesday, July 29, 2009

july 29th, 2009

quattro mani reprise

A man with a pierced ear smoked a cigarette and said I’ve been clean 17 months to a seemingly uninterested bum holding a sign made from the cardboard in a 12 pack. I immediately scribbled the moment down on the back of a receipt after I crossed La Cienega. It was summer and the sun was still setting. I enjoy Hollywood sunsets. They’re nothing compared to the ones in San Diego, but those nights meant so little to me. I’m sipping on Quattro Mani again because funds are low and I don’t feel so alone with the red label at my feet. I was asked if I was content tonight and answered as if prompted about the discussion, not my life. The one time someone throws that question my way I fumble the ball and watch it hit the ground. Too bad. He finally came over and took pictures last week and I ended up using what he felt was the “boring” shot. It was everything I wanted. I’m just recovering from Saturday night when Ziggy Stardust danced around the room with us as we laughed and played. Nothing compares to those moments with my leggy beauty of the night.

version two

carry me to bed Freescha
carry me gracefully
because last night I fell
and woke up bleeding
wondering where I was
and why I chose to do the things I did
I was scared
but here I am
and I'm no longer scared
I'm just lonely

the narcissist

the narcissist flips through his book before bed
worrying about typos
and what could have been

the narcissist sips saved white wine
and scowls

the narcissist gives up because
the clock advises so
because he has applied chapstick
for the fifth time

the narcissist has a lot to learn
and so do I
but I look forward to the groan

1 comment:

  1. "carry me to bed Freescha... here I am.. "

    "..the narcissist sips saved white wine
    and scowls.."